Oh Snap!!

If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.

Until Then,
Isabel.

Been there, done that, messed around
I’m having fun don’t put me down,
I’ll never let you sweep me off my feet,
I won’t let you in again, the messages I’ve tried to send,
my informations’ just not going in,
burnin’ bridges shore to shore, I’ll break away from something more,
I’m not to not to love until it’s cheap,
been there, done that, messed around,
I’m having fun don’t put me down,
I’ll never let you sweep me off my feet.

I won’t let you turn around,
and tell me now I’m much too proud,
to walk away from something when it’s dead,
do do do your dirty WORST come out to play when you are HURT,
there’s certain things that should be left unsaid,
tick tick tick tick on the watch and life’s too short for me to stop,
Oh baby, your time is running out,
I won’t let you turn around,
and tell me now I’m much too proud,
All you do is fill me up with doubt.

This time maybe I’ll be bulletproof.
This time baby I’ll be bulletproof.

I hope you don't misunderstand me.

My philosophy was you and me, even up my dreams it is you I see.
The Bubble Pops, the puzzle's incomplete can't you see you was all I needed.
Now I'm sad, trying to hold back, but tears rolling fast with this pain in my past.
Honestly I feel weak, well it's hard to explain but you drive me insane.

My only question, do you miss me when I am gone?
Tell me boy, tell me.

It is reality that you're playing me.
You took my air to breathe.
'Cause I was blind to see.
Now I know that I have to go.
Why don't you see, I was all you needed.
Wanna stay, but it ain't ok that he is with you.
And it's me who's saw.

I was the one that you could always count on, lean on.
But those days are gone.
All we have are memories of better days.
Now I need to say goodbye.

Boy I wrote this letter to let you know forever.
I keep you in my heart when I'm leaving you.
Girl I wrote this letter and it ain't getting better.
That is why I can't be with you.
P.S. I still love you...

23May, 26May 2009.

I don't know if I can yell any louder. How many time I've kicked you outta here? Or said something insulting?

I can be so mean when I wanna be. I am capable of really anything. I can cut you into pieces, but my heart is broken.

I always say how I don't need you, but it's always gonna come right back to this. Please, don't leave me.

How did I become so obnoxious? What is it with you that makes me act like this? I've never been this nasty.

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest? The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest, but I don't mean it. I mean it, I promise.

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me. I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag and I need you, I'm sorry.

You say I don't need you but it's always gonna come right back. It's gonna come right back to this.

If the darkest hour comes before the light, where is the light? How did you know to get out of a world gone mad? Help me let go of the chaos around me, the devil that hounds me. I need you to tell me: Child be still.

Until Then,
~Isabel.

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest.
Or the girl who never wants to be alone.
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning.
'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home.

The sun is blinding,
I stayed up again.
I am finding,
That's not the way I want my story to end.

I'm safe,
Up high,
Nothing can touch me.
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain,
Inside.
You're like protection.
How do I feel this good Sober?

I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence.
Cryin scares me cause it screams the truth.
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation.
I won't remember, save your breath, 'cos what's the use?

The night is calling?
And it whispers to me softly come and play.
I am falling,
And If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame.

Until Then,
Isabel

Rat Shit, bat shit, Dirty old twat!
69 assholes tied in a knot!
Hooray!!! Lizard shit!!!!! FUCK!

LOL!!!!!

Until Then,
Isabel :P

I did realise that, it seems like I didn't want things to change.
I've been struggling, to no avail, to keep things the way they were.
Weird, as much as it seems, stubborn.
I'm changing, people are changing, yet I'm want things unchanged.
This is stupid.My dreaming is at an end.
I've becoming more of a no-lifer than I ever thought I would.
"Whoa"
Having hgh expectations but not doing anything is not helping.
In fact, it's a plain waste of time.
Existence, is when you contribute and not when you waste.
Everybody is somebody, but it may not be the right body.
Maybe, I simply shouldn't be.

Until Then,
Isabel.

/You know it's over even before it begins. The end is just a little harder when brought about by friends. 

Hello Regrets.
The end or not the end?
Thank you but Sorry. 
Take Care and Good bye.

Until Then,
Isabel.

Life can be a bitch. Karma's coming, I'm so deserved.

It's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this.
But I'll only be in your way.

Fallen walls, as falling leaves fall. Will, too, soon be back up as season change.
Guarding facade, trailing reminiscence.
Magic disappears, as magic came.
As much as it is grieving, afar lies what is in exuberance.

Goodbye, my friend.

Until Then,
Isabel

-TheHermit-

Hah.

Got no time for grand philosophy. I barely keep my head above the tide. What you're saying is the truth that really troubles me inside. I'd change the world if I could change my mind, if I could live beyond my fears. Exchanging unity for all my insecurity, exchanging laughter for my tears.

Until Then,
Isabel.
 

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I don't even know myself anymore.

So what happens now?
Where am I going to?

I will not ask anymore.

Until Then,
Isabel.

Taking a picture off another wall.

I am gonna rage-quit WoW. Yay me!!

/cheer me

Until Then,
Isabel D: 

I'm in love. With who? With Nature!! Hahahahahahaha!!

Mine. :)
Heh.
<30/11/2008>

Until Then,
Isabel.